the time is here

The time has come to carry the burden. I'm officially the only income in our family. I don't really mind, I just feel that it's getting closer to the babies coming. I'm working nights, and I know it's stressful on my wife, but I can guarantee it's MUCH more difficult on me. I'm sleep deprived, hungry, and cranky all the time. I want to go to bed, but I still have to drive an hour before I get home. I sometimes feel that my requests when I'm home are being ignored, and even more so when I'm at work. I just sometimes feel like a big ball o' stress. I think it's time for me to get on my knees and do a lotta praying.

Later,
J

Sure makes things easy

It sure makes things easy when you are married to your best friend. My wife actually has been getting up with me at 03:30 and cooks me a hot meal. I have enjoyed the little bit of time we share together in the mornings. Sometimes it gets a little lonely getting up so early with everyone else still sleeping. Then to be able to talk to her on the phone while ON THE WAY to work! Wow, it's really nice. With all the sluggish feeling going on in my head, it perks me up and gets my brain working to be able to hold a conversation with her. We can usually get a lot worked out when we are talking on my way to work. We line out our bills, plan our weekly spending, discuss meal plans, etc... It really works. I don't have much time in the evenings when I get home to talk to her without interruptions from the kids before I have to go to bed, so it makes it very nice to be able to do it in the mornings.  Those kisses goodbye in the morning really do remind me of WHY I get up so damn early... It's REALLY nice, to be married to your best friend. ~ J

What a day!

Yesterday I actually got a day off! I got to go to Lake Church with the family. I really enjoyed the sermon, and even got some inspiration. Went to the new house with the family to get photo's for the insurance company and Jacob got to see his room for the first time. The boy's are so excited about moving to the new house. Our daughter, not so excited. I'm stressed on how stressed it's making the kids on waiting to move. Any clues to make the transition easier on them?

Daily Difficulty

Today was difficult to leave the house. It's always difficult to leave the house though. Looking at my beautiful wife all curled up in bed didn't help. I stopped and said a little prayer asking for some strength, and BAM it came. I left the house at the usual well before the crack of dawn, got my coffee at the gas station and headed to work. I look at my phone and see that I'd missed a call... AT 4:15 AM? Guess who, my wife. I called her back and enjoyed a good 15 min conversation. It invigorated me better than any coffee.
     Last night I sat and had dinner with the family like normal, but the boys didn't come to the table. Oh well, we started without them. We said our prayers, the wife, daughter and I, and began to eat. Once the boys realized we were eating they came scrambling. They said they didn't know what I wanted when I had called for them earlier, or else they would have come then. I told the boys, next time I wouldn't let them eat at all. We eat as a family, or not at all.  Is that being too harsh? IDK, chime in.. leave me a comment... Thanks for listening to my rambling...J

Exhausted...

I work some long hours. I get up at 3:30 in the morning, on the road by 4:30, and get to work by 6. I work 12 hours then come home. I sometimes feel like I don't have time to spend with my family and regret not being home on a regular basis, before dinner time that is. I get home and I just want to eat and go to sleep. Is that wrong of me? I really would like to spend more time with the wife and kids, but physically i'm beat! I should be working out, spending time with the family, etc.. but instead i'm wanting my bed. Any clue how to manage more time with the family?

What I'm doing here...

I'm Jason. I'm a husband to a wonderful wife and father of 3 with 2 on the way. I'm going to use this blog to try and improve my ability to raise my children, to be a better husband, all in a CHRISTIAN manner. I am a firm believer in Christ our Lord and Savior, and hope to find or administer advice on the best way to handle situations with my family.